Moving house

I am moving hse again..

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See you guys there..

Muackz..

**ARGHH*

Libra guy..

 

*Relationship or work*

In life, everyone is always given a few choices to choose..To choose relationship or work or dreams or studies or etc and etc..Likewise for me, I am not an exception at all..All this while, throughout my whole entire life, I consider myself as the fortunate one where I am always given the option to choose the things I want-to choose the path I want to have-to choose the job I want to be in-to choose the guy I want to be with..I  am lucky..But always take things for granted..Sometimes, i really dont know what I wan in my life..At times, some of my frens were actually quite jealous and envy me..

Initially before Ora coached me, I will definitely said i will always choose RELATIONSHIP or GUYS..after I broke up with Xavam, I've always wanted to have a carefree life..a life where no one can control me...tho I enjoy the freedom and carefree life but at times I do feel lonely..I need someone..To accompany me..To make me laugh..To hug him..To kiss him..To adore him..To bully him..To be truthfully, I really made lots of frens..Met different kind of ppl..From rich to average to alright..From fat to thin to tall to short..From cute to ugly to handsome...BUT NO ONE CAN REALLY ATTRACT ME..I dun deny that I had a few r/s after the 2 yrs r/s but all of them dont turn out well..partly is because of me...hmmm..i dont know why..but i dont have the heart to get attached..Well, there is something that i need to confess here..and if u are my close fren i think u shd know my pattern..I fall for someone very easily..I mean as in like him but not love him...which is not good..I know lots of ppl always said..gurls should play hard to get then guys will only like..sometimes i dont agree with it..If u really like that person, then is it so impt to save ur face just because u are a gurl..hmm..come on its 21st century edi wor..ok..thats not my point anyway..back to the topic..now and then ppl come up to me and said "Hey, Cindy..How come you are not attached?" "You're kinda of cute, should have a bf."..Sometimes when ppl said this to me, I asked myself back " Ya lo, Cindy..How come you are not attached?" I dont know..I seriously dont know..I wish to have someone to love me once more..but something is stopping me from doing so and I cant find the source out till now..*HrmmMmm* Ora said its a "Xin Li Ping"..Maybe she is right..I am closing my heart to myself and not opening it as wide as it can be so that others can try to enter my life..

After Ora came in to train me..My perception towards life changed..I have to admit that she is really good in motivating training and coaching ppl..Really good man..Salute her..Tho its only just the beginning of the 3 months training but I can see a slight change in me.. I realise that myself..Which is good..Now..I can tell you guys..What i wan in my life..WORK AND MONEY..Money is essential to me now..Like Ora told me, No men you will not die but no money you will die..True and fair enough..Guys will then said "Why gurls nowadays are so materialistic and pratical?" But well I dont deny some gurls are..At a period of time I became kind of materialistic..But now after the training, I believe in hard earned money..I believe in myself..I used to be very dependent on my ex either financially or mentally..I need to change..I know that.. I wan to be independent..And thats why I think money is necessary for me..Without money without a guy..Who support me? My parents? Nah  they are too old already..Ora's training has lighten my life..I have a clearer mind to know what I want to achieve in my life..Now, all i need is to be more diligent more determination more motivation more will power and never said die..Then, I am sure the path to success is nearer to me..=) Coz i have two good mentors..hahahaha..I am so excited for all the plans they have planned for me..Hopefully everything turn smoothly..

Hmm..Ytd..Mr V confessed to me..He said he missed me..Then, I told him that he is pratically missing all the gurls out there...hahahahaha..I am not the only gurl that he missed..Wats the point of missing me when u dont even know what u want in life..I told him that I am tired..Tired of all this r/s things..He said he likes me...Honest speaking I like him too..But the thing is that my heart is already frozen due to wat happened..So wat we like each other..It doesnt necessary means that we have to be together..I told him that I am scare..I dont want to be hurt by him again..I jus wan to focus on work and do the best in my life..I dont want to have regrets..Lots of things to  be achieved..Seriously I felt so emo after wat happened in Momo previously..My two babies Jayne and Angela and ah pa Jeffrey will know..Really super duper emo..Luckily they are there for me..Seriously if things dont happened in Momo between he and that gurl and he said this to me..I am sure we will be together..But tooo bad..it happened after two weeks and my training..

Now I am so sure that I dont want to get into any r/s

and

just want to

 FOCUS ON WORK..

its raining